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digitalalterego) wrote2026-01-05 08:18 pm
digitalalterego) wrote2026-01-05 08:18 pm
Material Joy/I am What I Consume
How do I become a person, or have a personality when I am what I consume?
When I listen to new music I think about showing it off to my friends, or the way that it fits like a puzzle piece into my patchwork quilt of a music taste, or what I could take from it in order to make my music. It's the same with most media, too.
I can't just enjoy something, and I'm more in love with the idea of consumption than what I'm consuming!
I finally bought the first half of the Devilman manga, which I was overjoyed to find at a cheap-ish price. Lucky me. I wanted it for so long, but... Now I have it it doesn't feel as good as I thought. What is the point in accumulating material possessions when we are just going to move on and start wanting the next thing? And the next, and the next, and the next...
I don't have any particular taste. My entire opinion on music is whatever sounds new, and fresh to me. Must be the same for everything else. Things don't really excite me anymore, I guess it's a side effect of growing up that I'll just have to get used to.
When people ask me what I like I can only say, "I like a bit of everything".
I like the idea of being a fashionable person, I hate buying new clothes.
I want to be an artist, I don't want to make art.
I think of myself as academic, but I don't actually enjoy learning new things.
So who am I?
When I listen to new music I think about showing it off to my friends, or the way that it fits like a puzzle piece into my patchwork quilt of a music taste, or what I could take from it in order to make my music. It's the same with most media, too.
I can't just enjoy something, and I'm more in love with the idea of consumption than what I'm consuming!
I finally bought the first half of the Devilman manga, which I was overjoyed to find at a cheap-ish price. Lucky me. I wanted it for so long, but... Now I have it it doesn't feel as good as I thought. What is the point in accumulating material possessions when we are just going to move on and start wanting the next thing? And the next, and the next, and the next...
I don't have any particular taste. My entire opinion on music is whatever sounds new, and fresh to me. Must be the same for everything else. Things don't really excite me anymore, I guess it's a side effect of growing up that I'll just have to get used to.
When people ask me what I like I can only say, "I like a bit of everything".
I like the idea of being a fashionable person, I hate buying new clothes.
I want to be an artist, I don't want to make art.
I think of myself as academic, but I don't actually enjoy learning new things.
So who am I?